Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Bursley-Baits Bus

Sometimes you just need to alliterate the fuck out of some verse:

In yore-days came hither the Bursley-Baits bus, human-heavy;
the steersman stopping that I might mount, murder on my brow outwrit.
Fool-filled was that iron-steed, its seating scarce;
my steel-sword strong, 'mongst startled seat-sitters
I upraised calumnious keening: cried they oft of my man-mace's might.
Ragefully ravaged I those wretches, fell threats roaring,
balefully blasted I their bones, brain-broth drinking.
Sometime a loathsome lout the stop-string smote, anon was he swiftly slain.
“Hark!” blaired I, “No-man disembarks ere we CC Little!”
I a marauding murder-maker, a transport-terror hailed.
Soothly, all submitted to my awesome strength!

Any comments on how to make this poem more badass welcome!

A Dream Within a Dream

Cold rocks
Warm, cinnamon-scented air wafts past
The clitter-clatter of the busy workman,
aluminum keys a soft reminder of life beyond my mind.

The familiar weight presses on my throat
It crushes my windpipe in pain and shame.

“Hey, are you alright?”

A fat woman looks over her gigantic,
frothy mountain of colored ice.
A wild and beautiful thing tamed for
her flabby mouth.

“God, think she’s got enough whip cream?”
It was an agitated whisper,
something I thought another had said.

“What?”
“Ohh, nothing…” I mutter again.

I was a puppet for my thoughts.
Control was slipping,
They always seemed to have that effect.

Clictity-clack

The metal minutes tapped nicely by,
the vice squeezing my breath.
Stop staring. Say something clever.

“You look great”
I leaned slowly,
my heart re-arranging the organs in my chest.

So close the breath was warm
A tropical breeze of mint and creamy-dark coffee.

Their blue-tinted windows were dark,
So dark and enticing. They begged me.

I reached forward and stopped just short.
The annoying woman slurped the empty cup
The sound of type ceased.

Their eyes were on us.

I looked back into the universes of heaven.
I saw the same longing.
I couldn’t breathe.

Fuck this.
Did I say it aloud?

I drew us close
Our lips merged in flawless unison

Our muscles flexed,
suspense and surprise knotted in sinew.

The tension waned,
melted into time;
The strain unraveled

There, the universe in a moment.

No more cold rocks.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Read some Al Purdy, it's healthy

Clumps of Brown Hair


When it's late
And I remember her face,
Excited, flashing under
The come-and-go streetlights
Flaring past
At one hundred miles per hour
As I try to rush her home on time,
What am I supposed to say to her now?
A cold handshake and wish her the best?

Those kind words
Would come out layered
Thick in honey and venom,
A spit in the face wrapped
With a crinkled red bow,
An offered hand, septic.

That would be a disservice
To the years that slipped down
The drain, staring in the mirror
And cutting my hair
at one in the morning,
Trying to get each trace of
Months-old smell gone
With the buzz of a razor.

That ride to her house
I lied to her and said
That desk clerks die.
Clumps of brown hair
On white tile floor
And the clerks still
Have their wooden desks.

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Very, Very Hungry

Last revision made at 3:51 AM, Tew's Day the thirtieth.
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There was a time, perhaps half a century ago, though to me it sometimes seems as long ago as when the simurg ruled Sky and wyrms Earth, when visitors would come to my room late at night and dance and feast with me under the moon. This was the time when there were seasons besides winter, if only in my mind, and when I filled the night sky with singing.

That time ended for me when the visitors stopped coming, though for those others who never had visitors I think summer must have ended for the last time when the Green seized power.

I do not know what life was like before the Green, I know only that it could not have been as it is now. I do not know what it was like because I trust no one to tell me, and no one trusts me enough to tell me, and books are full of lies. The Judges (whom some call executioners when they think, foolishly, that no one is listening) have rewritten them all, as they have blocked radio signals from outside. They are fighting a war of attrition with our memories. One day all those who know what we have lost will be gone and those remaining will be as I am, orphans who remember their parents only from dreams. Then they will forget even that.



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My parents were rarely at home during my younger years – away on business or pleasure, or hiding from the Green (as were so many in those years, when it was still possible to hide), or God knows. I did not. I still do not. Finally their visits dwindled away to nothingness. They had hired a wet nurse for me when I was still an infant and kept her on as a permanent nanny until her murder a decade later. If they had known that she was actually working two shifts in the City (presumably to support a family in her home country, a loving husband and laughing children and a wrinkled mother) and only ever came back to the house at three in the morning to sleep for four or so hours perhaps they would not have kept her on. Or perhaps they would have – how much, if at all, my parents cared about my wellbeing is another thing I have never truly understood.

I was thus largely alone in the familial manse for my entire childhood. Almost bereft of contact with adults, barring the few hours a day when Nana was at home, I held only a tenuous grasp on the normal and the possible. To me, thus, the first nocturnal visits were none too strange – indeed, my child's imagination conjured no less fanciful adventures during the daylight hours.

The visitors themselves were small and man-shaped, and very bright. They floated, invariably, through the window, and their own natural glow combined with that of the moon conspired to illuminate the entire room almost as well as during broad daylight, though the shadows cast by the furniture on the walls and floors were somehow thicker and blacker. They never came on cloudy nights, or on nights when the moon was not in the sky. Only later would I think to question them about this, after I had already begun to contemplate the answer. They spoke my language, albeit slowly and simply – perhaps the better to communicate with a child largely deprived of opportunities to improve his vocabulary. They had silver fur and golden eyes, and dog-like faces, and sharp teeth that glinted like rubies in the moonlight.

We would speak, as I have said, and play games – they would hide from me, or I from them, in the bowels of the house. It did not take me long to grow bored with hide and seek, as I learned quickly to identify their hiding spots from the strange, distorted shapes the shadows around them would take, like prehistoric paintings in some long-forgotten grotto. Then they would lead me outside, and these were the only times I would ever see my neighborhood, pale and shivering in the interminable winter, for Nana would not under any circumstances allow me outside of the house – perhaps in order to shield herself from suspicion that she had somehow abducted me from my real, native-born parents, but I think it more likely that the murders had genuinely caused her to fear for my safety. She loved me, I think, as I loved her, for she was the closest to a mother that I had, and I the closest to a child for her in this country.

I should speak of the murders. It is important you realize that these were not the mundane killings and disappearances that occur whenever the Green rule. By all accounts the first of the murders did indeed take place shortly after the end of the Civil War, and I am sure that most residents of the Town at first assumed them to be attributable to the change in government – the Town had changed hands many times over the course of the war, and its residents were by that time more than familiar with life under the iron law of the Judges.

Slowly, however, it became apparent that these murders were something else entirely. The Judges and their agents were clearly as baffled and frightened as the rest of the Town, seeing in the murders the last remnants of an insurgency, of resistance to God and Law. They responded as is their wont, declaring martial law or early curfews on days following attacks, and very occasionally (and for what reason save for sheer delusion I may never understand) they accused some poor migrant worker of the murders and executed him at sunrise.

I say murders, though from all accounts most of the victims were simply dogs and farm animals. What human victims there were seemed to have been selected at random, without any apparent motive or reason. Individuals out after dark, or who lived alone, or who slept near windows were the most frequent targets. None of the murders was committed with the aid of a firearm – the victims were instead eviscerated, their bodies rent open and their hearts torn out. So savage was the butchery that some suggested the murderer fed his victims to a large dog or even a tiger, though clearly this was not the case, as some of the victims were slain while their spouses slept on, oblivious until awakened by the birdless silence of morning.

Panic spread as the murders targeted humans with greater frequency. Fearing an exodus to the City or elsewhere, and the risk this would pose to the public order, the Green quarantined the Town and withdrew their Judges. I do not know what Nana did, then, to earn money, as she remained only a nocturnal visitor to the house. I suspect she may have turned to prostitution.
And I in all this? I, yet a child, remained unmindful of it all. It was at around the time of the first human murders that I stopped feeling the need to eat.

My moonlit fugues became almost a nightly occurrence, and slowly it came to pass that even on dark nights when the visitors did not come I dreamt of loping through the Town with the cold pricking my ears and tongue. Perhaps on some bright nights the visitors did not come, and I only dreamt they did. So much of what transpired on those nights belongs to the realm of dreams, who am I to begrudge it the rest?

The visitors would perch on my shoulders and whisper to me, their voices as faint as the susurrus of a tree roused by the wind from its winter's sleep (if only for a little while, for the wind is fleeting and winter long). I could never make out their words, and I suspect it would have made no difference had I been able to: they did not seem to speak so much as to breathe into me, the coolness of their breath through my ears seeming to settle upon my mind like a mist, a mist filled with images and feelings and colors, none of them coherent save the one in the back of my mind and in the pit of my stomach, the one urging me ever forward. The object of this compulsion emitted a smell that I began to scent as I neared it – of crushed grass and of forests, of citrus fruits, and honey, and flowers, and life.

The source of that aroma was always a tree, but they were trees like none I have ever seen in the waking world. Some of them were very large, others smaller than bushes. They were vibrant and luminous, brilliantly green with flowers of red and pink and white, as though they were misplaced flora from that lost summertime that had once been ours. Their branches were wild and thick, giving the impression that they were not branches so much as leaf-bearing roots thrust into the air to inhale the gleaming essence of an alien world. If I closed my eyes and listened, and I often did, I could hear from within them the slow crash of waves against some secret shore, as if there existed hidden in each tree an ocean of unfathomable vastness.

The first tree was outside, in a silvery pasture along the edges of the Town, but others grew indoors or on roads and sidewalks (such is the logic of dreams). I approached the tree and my friends, flitting as they were between it and my head, told me (though not in words) what I was to do. I reached my hand into its bole (how easily the bark parted!), and grasped the bright red fruit that rested there, and brought it to my mouth, and bit deeply.

I bit deeply, and suddenly I was elsewhere: in a field of green and gold, illuminated not by the sun but by the air itself, air so bright and clear it might have been a jewel. I saw sheep and dogs and humans, and I could not tell which I was (for I was no longer in my old body), and I did not care. I heard the gentle noises of the animals, and the laughter of the humans, and everywhere the crash of waves, and I felt happiness.

At length I came back to myself, and I was far from the pasture where the tree had been, and I was singing to the moon. My friends had gone, sated, I think, by the world contained within that glorious fruit. I continued to sing my song for many hours, for it seemed the natural thing to do, until finally I made my way back to my bed, and the next night was the same, and the next. Sometimes the fruit would transport me to cities made of sand along the beach, to a lover's embrace or a father's lap, to the midst of a crowd of laughing children or the bloody exaltation of a childbirth. And for a while I was as happy as any human has ever been.

It was the night (a moonless one) after I dreamt of laughing children that Nana did not come home, and the day after I realized that she would never return. I wept and in my grief I drove away my visitors, and that was the last I saw of them.

When the moon is full I lie abed and look to the window and hope to see those quicksilver shapes come to lead me out into the night. But I know now what they were, and I know that they are gone forever. I have lived for too long scouring in vain the dregs of what has become life for even the haziest reflection of what I felt on the cold nights of my childhood. I am able no more. I am old and my heart is empty, and winter reigns over us still. I will sing to the moon one last time, though with the voice of a man, before the end.

Ticks

One minute, ten seconds. Sit on the sofa, think about life for a bit. One and five, why live on with this shit? Why take all the squalor, and late rent, and 30% interest bills piling up with a dog that shits all over the newspaper that I'm not done reading yet. 57 seconds now, where did the cute little innocent tick magnet come from? Oh yeah! 53 seconds, that bitch's bitch who had four other blind-as-a-bat bundles of joyousness. Sarah wasn't all that bad, 42, at least she was hot. My friends certainly thought I had it made, 40. She just didn't respect me though, or my space. Shit! Dog left the paper, where's the Woolite?! There--crisis averted, 27, where was I? Yeah, she was great most of the time, like Fido here, but I needed my SPACE! She didn't understand, 20, and neither did my parents. I'm not going to die anytime soon, 15, but I mean come ON! it's like they expect magic to happen, and Sarah's not magic. I finally asked for space, 6, but all I'm left with now is this lousy fleabag dog and her shit that I still have to, 2, clean up and DING! Finally, my Hot Pockets!

My second attempt at flash fiction, also written at the meeting, this time in the last 10 minutes of the writing activity. I'm glad I tried my hand at the genre.

Commute

She drives all the time, at least two hours a day she makes the commute. She lives out of the city for the kids she'll have some day, for the PTA meetings at 6, after Jane's been dropped off to soccer and Ken, or John, or Ben, or maybe Dan, is at rehearsal for the 5th grade talent show. She'll only have a ten minute drive from her home to the school then, and another fifteen on the way home, because Jane will be done with practice by then.

Then, then she will have her family home, with husband showing up with Nate by 8, and maybe play a board game on the floor of the den by the fireplace that doesn't work because the chimney's dirty again. She and husband are too busy with the kids these days, they grow up so fast with the dates and the Proms and Joe getting his license while Jane's practicing her commencement speech, and "watch the road, Matt! don't worry, we're safe, you missed the deer and we're fine. I was scared too."

She drives for him now. He's not here, not yet, not quite. Jane will have to come first; She can practically feel her kicking now as her lights follow the curve of the old familiar back-country road she takes to avoid the highway. Those lights that turn with the steering wheel. Those lights that don't quite illuminate the outside curve of the road. And the deer.

This was the first flash fiction piece I had ever written, I wrote it during the exercise on Thursday in about fifteen or twenty minutes- the prompt came from the 'Writer's Block' and was a picture of an ambulance at the scene of a bad accident.

Friday, October 26, 2007

The Seven Chairs

This is from that prompt a long long time ago when we had that amazing creepy book with the pictures and one sentence. Mine was written after the one, if you remember, that was the picture of the nun sitting in a chair, levitated in the air above the altar in a cathedral while two clerics looked up at her. I'm posting this now because it's another piece of flash fiction, and it was written in 20 minutes, proof that flash fiction is excellent for WC activities.... :) However, it hasn't really been edited much, so anything that you can offer in the way of comments is greatly appreciated.



The fifth one ended up in France. The nuns thought it was a sign from God, a warning of the second coming, and they remembered Keats. Inside their walls, secluded and slowly being eaten from the inside by fear, they did not know about the others, and it was probably best.


The third caused not fear, but awe, placed as the central feature of the Greatest Show on Earth, and the audience applauded even as the actors became convinced they were going mad. The director, refusing to succumb to the disbelief of the others, was convinced he had stumbled upon a discarded item from another act, whose director was too stupid to know its real value. As his actors rose through the air, unhindered and unsupported, he smiled and went to look after the ticket sales.


The second and forth were gifts to the twin daughters of the Emperor of China from his trusted advisor and most powerful magician, who now had become deluded that he possessed real powers. He could command the Emperor’s daughters through the air at will; after the manipulation of natural laws, what was there left to conquer? It was when he failed to bring the smaller twin back from the dead after she fell from the chair that he was executed.


The sixth was never discovered, left as it was in the middle of the desert, and having lost patience with the earth, it began to rise unprompted, until only the vultures ever knew of its existence. But the first and the last of the seven chairs remained with their maker, for he could not yet decide where to leave them.


He though, perhaps, that to cause the most distress he should place the first in the Latin Quarter of Paris, so that the intellectuals from all over the world would sob and rip out their hair and drink themselves into oblivion as the remnants of their logical world collapsed around them, driven to demise by a chair that defied gravity and moved when spoken to. But was that what he wanted? Did he truly desire that the minds of the world suddenly find no alternative but to follow the philosophy held by many that human perception was all the reality consisted of, that the laws of physics were simply created to give reason and shape to the chaos around us? Then the chairs would no longer be a source of fear, but the basis of new theories, the theories of a new world order. And perhaps then people would understand how he spent nights twisting and bending the fabric of existence until he was all but sure he was going mad himself.


He thought he would keep the seventh.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Veils

At the sound of her heels click-clacking on the green-tiled floor, heads look up to assess the newcomer. At the sight of her, gazes are dropped instantly, out of respect for her dress. Like stars on the night of the new moon, Swarovski crystals illuminate the deep black of her abaya. Rich folds fall over face, covering the slight immodesty that even the most conservative of women allow themselves. The hem of her robe sweeps the floor and men avert their eyes, ignoring the fact that it covers four-inch stilettos and a killer figure wrapped in revealing, expensive designer-wear.

A few eyes glance furtively at her, wondering perhaps, how fine her hair is, what the colour of her eyes is, or what the shape of her mouth is like. The scent of the finest oud surrounds her like an aura, enveloping her in a dream of sensual Turkey, or erotic Egypt. But the men speak respectfully towards her, their gazes lowered - their shoes a poor alternative to the mysterious persona.

A glimpse of her black-swathed visage sends a jolt through their hearts. The enigma of her face consumes them with curiosity and desire. Her husband must be a lucky man, the onlookers think. To discover her would be like receiving manna from Heaven.

And then they are rewarded. A delicate hand peeps out from the folds of the robe. A soft wrist sends shivers through their bodies. Her skin, white and ethereal, disappears as fast as it materialized leaving those around her believing that it was nothing but a dream...

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Of Birds and Bees

This is from the in-club prompt for a parent telling a child about "the facts of life." Enjoy!


“Well son, sometimes two people, when they are old enough and love each other very much or pay enough, share a special hug. For the purposes of this conversation, we’ll refer to this hug as a happysicle. Now a happysicle occurs between all sorts of people, sometimes even a whole big group of them at once, we’ll get to those kinds of things later when we reach the kitty bar in Vegas in two hours.

But you see, when a man and women have a happysicle, the woman’s belly will grow and grow until she regrets ever having that 5th tequila, and then she’ll yell at the man for forgetting to bring home the mint chocolate chip ice cream she was screaming at him to get two hours ago while the man was trying to have another happysicle with his secretary.

But ultimately a tiny new-born baby will pop out of the woman’s no-no spots, one day growing up to be a full-grown and mature adult such as myself. And that is precisely how you arrived on this fair earth; ice cream, secretary, and all. Now quick, drink the rest of this beer, I think I see a cop car coming up behind us.”

Thus begins the blurred, sometimes awkward, adventures of Damien “Did you want another shot with that?” Joel and his eight-year-old son, Jacques-de-Napoleon Joel (yes, Damien was drunk at his son’s birth).

Jacques’ mother had left the pair two years after the boy’s birth under the cough-syrup influenced impression that Damien was having an affair with a chicken sandwich. She was later quoted as saying, “That fucking sandwich can have my son, he’s the offspring of that chicken fucker anyways.”

Damien, in fact, was in a multitude of relationships and one-night-stands over the course of his marriage to the mother, often times forced to hide a lover under his bed when his wife would arrive. This would often lead to midnight threesomes in which the wife was unaware that Damien was simultaneously having sex with her as well as another woman in the middle of the dark.

On the horizon, the strip shined brightly, beckoning the two towards its sinful innards. God help us all.

OK, so after doing much research, I have two fabulous events to offer you. First is a corn maze. This will probably have to take place next Saturday, October 27 or Sunday the 28th. I think it would be best to do this in the evening (so much cooler in the dark). The maze itself is about 3 miles long, and it is absolutely amazing. However, it is located near Lansing, about 45 minutes away. So I will need to know EXACTLY how many people are coming and how many people can drive. Leave a comment letting me know that you are interested and which day is best for you.

We can also make a trip to the Dexter Cider Mill if there is enough interest. Downtown Dexter is about 25 minutes from Ann Arbor, so again, we will be carpooling. This will probably take place the first weekend of November (3rd and 4th) or the weekend after that (10th and 11th). Leave a comment if you are interested in this event. Thank you!

Friday, October 19, 2007

Raindrops

Written and workshopped this summer, edited slightly since then.

The staccato rhythm of rain on the windowsill
Keeps me trapped inside
Because at the moment, this isn't as bad
As having wet sneakers

I stare at the curve of your forehead
Yearning to plant a gentle kiss on it or even
Just caress it with the affection I feel
I've always felt

But I know the rules
That's not okay anymore

You've fallen asleep on the couch
As you're so fond of doing
And are oblivious to the familiar sounds of
Jack McCoy putting away another killer

In a happier world
I would give you that kiss, or that caress
And you would ask me to spend the night
Or at least the rain would fade away
And I could walk home in peace

I'd settle for an umbrella, to be honest

But in this world
I gaze longingly at your lips for
Just a few more seconds
And I walk out into the rain

As I ease the door shut, I idly wonder
Why the raindrops taste like salt tonight

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Feste's Folly

This is the first part of a novel that I have been working on of which I am going to publish segments sporadically. It is based on the character of Feste the fool from Shakespeare's Twelfth Night. When the play begins, Feste has returned from some absence whose kind and duration are not specified. My novel deals mainly with what happened to him during this absence and why he both left and returned.Thank you to my group today for your helpful suggestions.

Chapter 1

He was drunk.

There was really nothing else to it. The young man sat at the bar on his wooden stool, completely and thoroughly inebriated. The barkeep glanced at him and shook his head sagely. These types came in often. Young, idealistic fools disillusioned by love and labor. Some of them went to the bottle and never came back. If he could talk to them in such a way, he would say that the world was bigger than their problems. But it wasn’t his place. He went on wiping mugs.

It is at least fair to say that the man at the bar would not deny he was a fool. He knew it well.

However, right now he didn’t actually think of anything. His eyes dazed into an unfocused cavern of dust and stars. His mind dabbled over physical proceedings like so many strings on a mandolin. A pluck here, a strum there. Lovely music played in his ears. It was the kind of stuff he’d heard before. A long, long time ago. Too long to remember. Perhaps a bit more ale would help him. He held out his hand toward the barkeep.

“Not for you, sir,” the barkeep responded levelly. “Not until you’ve paid for what you’ve had, man.”

The man at the bar swore and wondered why the barkeep’s head kept swiveling. Cursed barkeeps. They just wanted to empty his pockets and leave him in misery. He slapped his hand upon the bar and glared at the keep.

“Now, fellow, no need to get angry. Just pay the money, is all.”

At this point two big, loud townsmen entered the tavern and sat themselves next to the man. They were the kind who liked to show their muscles and demonstrate their belching ability. They spoke with far more volume than necessary, about some girl. Their very presence irritated the young man, and one of them was taking up more than his share of the bar space.

“Get me some ale,” one barked heavily.

The young man was vexed. He clattered his mug on the wood.

“My drink! My drink! I asked y’ for it, before these rascals come in. Come now, fill me mug anon!”

The big man next to him growled menacingly.

“Eh, you there, watch your tongue or you'll be sorry. Now, we ordered first so serve us first, that's right, barkeep.”

The barkeep knew what the start of a brawl looked like, but he had to serve the new customers. He reached for a couple mugs.

“Now!” The young man yelled. “What’re y’ doin’? Fill my drink. Pay no ‘tention to these dogs, these usurpers a’ thrones. Anon!”

At this both big men stood, and the closer punched the young man in the stomach. He was slight and weak and toppled right over.

“Now we warned you! Do you want more of that?”

The man could do nothing. The ale broke in waves over his mind, and the other men’s faces changed. He babbled without a thought.

“You block, you! Mal—you—worms, all y’! T’rrible blockhead. Ah, you, me brother, ‘re ‘n ig—nor—a—mus. Yes sir, signora. That is what be true. Oh what a tune, what a ninny! Ninnies, all. The twelfth day of December, lady, lady….”

By this time, the big men were upon him and he could not defend himself. His head hit the bar with an interesting cracking sound. At some point, he knew he’d been dragged outside because he felt sharp wetness of snow in his lungs. Strange, how he felt so warm and soft while the big man kept hitting him. He thought he might like a nap, just a quick one, sir….

The men finally left him against the side of the tavern, eyes closed and mouth stuck in a screwed smile. The pretty snow floated down and melted on his bloodied body.

A sound came out of his mouth, no more than a whistle of air.

“Oh mistress…mine…where are…you…roaming….”

Then silence.

Inside the tavern, the barkeep grimaced as he wiped blood off the corner of the bar.

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I
it is somewhat intoxicating absorbing what you don't want to absorb, the mathematics of the life you're wishing to lead. the economy of words is lost on you, you spurt out words you don't want to be said, and in these exhilarating moments, you wish for someone to save you, take you away. or perhaps, just take your breath away.

II
between the hello and goodbyes, we seek comfort in the approximation of each human quality that we tend to deduce. between the polite smiles and awkward handshakes we find in the touch that lasted a second, a closeness, a sharing of melancholic sentiments. we are alone, in our worlds, apart, and yet intimate.

III
You.
you took my breath away.

IV
in these ways of love, as they used to say, amor vincit omnia.

V
and there we are.

*****
I brought this for workshop tonight and got really helpful feedbacks :) . Just wondering what everyone else think about this.

the latin words up there mean 'love conquers all'

On the Radio

I would love lots of help on this one, I love the idea of the piece and I during classes have caught myself writing more lines to this piece of Poetic-Prose instead of taking notes.

So any suggestions, ESPECIALLY things to work on, would be greatly appreciated,


On The Radio

My friend is on the radio

Making me cry a little

With every dedication

To all of us who left



Yet we can't seem to call him

To tell him that we love him

The "On Air" button flashes red

But all the phones are dead

Am I next?

Life tells me let go

But teacher can't you see

He was my hero first

I just watched him grow

Tell me to stop breathing

Cause I just might do that

But don't tell me not to love

Chorus:

God, don't forget me

Don't tell me there is no home

Lie to me if you have to

I don't want to feel alone'



There is more to it, but its really long so you can find it on my blog

http://doubtdedication.blogspot.com/


Thanks so much in advance

Rick

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2007 Lit Mag Submission Guidelines

Here are the guidelines for submissions to the 2007 Writers' Community Literary Magazine:

**NEW DEADLINE: NOON ON SUNDAY NOVEMBER 4TH** (see below for updated editorial staff meeting times)

1. All submitters must be Writers' Community members. Each member is welcome to submit up to 5 pieces.

2. All submissions must be in some way associated with the group: i.e. written during writing activities, workshopped in a meeting, or posted on the blog for comments.

3. Submissions need not be only from this semester; as long as the provisions stated in guideline 2 are fulfilled, older pieces are also welcome. Feel free to re-submit updated versions of pieces you submitted to last year's Lit Mag or spoken word CD that weren't chosen for either.

4. Submitting to us does not in any way mean you're turning over rights to your work: we will either publish it in this issue of the magazine or not use it at all, and in either case you're still welcome to submit it elsewhere. If for any reason some edits become necessary, we will consult you before changing anything.

5. Each piece must have a title (or else we'll call it Untitled) and be not more than 3 single-spaced pages long in 12-point Times font.

6. Pieces must be emailed as Microsoft Word attachments to writerscommunity@gmail.com. Do not put your name in the word document, but please include it (as you would like it to appear in publication) in the email.

7. All submissions must be in by 11.59 p.m. on Friday November 2nd. You can start submitting now!

If you have any questions that aren't addressed here, leave a comment to this post or email me at cmanisha@umich.edu. You can also email me with specific questions about particular pieces.

(updated)
**If you're interested in editing the Lit Mag, here's the editorial staff meeting schedule:
Meeting 1: 8.00 p.m. Sunday Nov 4th
Meeting 2: 6.00 p.m. Tuesday Nov 6th
Meeting 3: 6.30 p.m. Thursday Nov 8th (before regular meeting)
Meeting 4: 6.00 p.m. Friday Nov 9th (tentative)

All editorial staff meetings will take place in the TAP ROOM (Union basement).**

Sky Reconsidered

That night we found
Solace
In the green drip
At the bottom of a bottle,
A subtle touch
To sever,
Each drop,
A passing cloud.

You convinced me
That my orange-cream
Sky was no such thing,
That it was diluted red.
At that moment
I could see
The rose petals
Twist through
Frozen space,
Wobble, curtsy, sputter,
Then layer the earth
In their soft
Floral glow.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Change

The world is changing

Is it? I see nothing different

Ah, but humankind varies

Do they? I hear no difference

You must see that the planet shifts

Does it? I feel nothing different

The world is changing

There are more colors in life

Beauty multiplies

Art becomes the living as the living grow stale

Humankind does vary

That man and that woman

They cannot be the same

In all aspects they are individual

The planet is shifting

Earthquakes, volcanoes, weather

Landscape changes and society grows

The natural world trembles and humans live on

The world is changing

It is… everything adjusts

Ah, but humankind varies

They do… I hear them bicker and argue

You must see that the planet shifts

It does… and nothing stays the same

Here is Where my Mind and Body Lie

Here is Where my Mind and Body Lie

Here is where my mind and body lie, but it is not where they belong

They follow the motions, follow the purpose, but they follow blind

Their blindness of the world, the reality that flows by,

Can only be caused by the loss of their organ of nonsense and illusion

And what is reality if fantasy is lost, but a drudgery of hard truth

Oh, how can this be found, this fantasy and disparity

But through a replacement of the lost organ, a new hope

Or connection with the lost, the one detached, to find the link

Between the past and present, and its contrasting fantasies,

To make the future so bright and find the line

The line is found, oh long thin thread of desire,

How it separates the real from not, and not at all

How can it be followed, but with the lost organ

Only a heart will do, to find the me that finds you

The heart was there all along, but with the one I love,

To keep me centered on the path of life,

To give me hope in times of trouble,

To remind me of the reality of the present,

To inspire my fantasies of the future,

To ground my thoughts when they flew too far,

And to love her when times get hard.

Some Day

Another I just found in my random writings folder- I don't remember writing some of this... hope I didn't steal it from someone. Here it is:


You’ll find me at the edge of time

The end of all things

The beginning of what’s to come

You’ll find me enduring the fiercest storm

Wind lashing my face

Rain flooding my bones and drowning my soul

You’ll find me kneeling before nothing

Penance paid to virtue

Soon I’ll find my destiny among those who’ve gone before

You’ll find me again, after all of this is through

I’ll laugh and smile to the breaking point

Someday I will have my time

To Be Determined

This isn't exactly the most creative, but it's something I've written and I'm proud of it.

It's a graduation speech for high school, but it applies to more than just that. Here it is:

To Be Determined

We find ourselves today at the culmination of our hard work and dedication. Our high school career is over and we are thrust into the next step in our lives. The way we live will be forever changed as we begin the adult life we have prepared for since we entered this school.

Our lives, however, are our own, and we will make them what we will. We are the ones who will decide our future and how successful we want to be. We are the ones to determine what our lives will be.

Many people write of the paths, roads, or rivers that we follow in life, but are we really making the most out of our own lives following an ordered path? No, life is more than some meandering river, it is a forest that we must clear our way through to reach our goals. The forest does not allow anyone to simply stroll along. Instead, we must avoid the obstacles and break through the challenges in life. We must be determined to reach our goals and continue on our quest.

The choices that we make in life determine our goals. If we choose, we will become successful and accomplish the goals we set for ourselves. Even if we don’t know what we want five or ten years down the road, we know what we want now. A good choice now will lead to the future that is to be determined. A great choice now will set us on our journey through the great forest of life.

Today we depart from our high school lives forever and journey into the world that is to be determined. As our time here draws to a close, it is important to remember that this is only the next step into our adult lives. We move forward into adulthood with our memories behind us and ourselves in the present, but what can be said about the future? What will come in our lives ahead?

The answer lies in us. Our decisions will determine how our lives will be.

Be

All I ever wanted was some peace

You know, some time of quiet

Where the world shuts down

And I can just be…

…I don’t care now

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Love Letter

This was today's prompt.... and is also an excellent example of why it is often difficult for me to have relationships with normal people. :)



Dear ____________,

There was no sun last Wednesday. I remember this specifically because Tuesday, after we spent a wonderful time on your couch watching Dr. Strangelove, I went to bed hoping there would be sun, hoping that the weather would affirm the growing idea in my subconscious that I am falling in love with you. Ironically, the absence of sun the next morning did not depress me, did not convince me that it was all a dream, but instead, the cold gray wind in through my window told me yes. Yes.

This is the way my mind works. You of course, having spent much time with me, know this already. My thoughts do not move in coherent lines, they do not being with one thing and end with another, the path between the two being easily discernable. In fact, I doubt that anyone but me could ever fully comprehend how I began with the question of love and ended with the cold, gray, disgusting air making me happy. As a courtesy to you, I have therefore mapped out my thoughts, in order, below.

Thought 1. Tuesday night, I left your apartment feeling elated, happy, and energized.

Thought 2. Am I falling in love with you?

Thought 3. It has not been long enough. I could not know yet. But on the other hand, maybe—

Thought 4. It has been too long. I should know by now. But, no—

Thought 5. It has been exactly the right amount of time. So why don’t I know yet?

Thought 6. I know most things about myself already. Why is this not one of them?

Thought 7. One of the things that I know about myself is that I love the city in fall, that lights and brisk half-darkness covered in clouds and the smell of smoke and grease and coffee and exhaust and cold cold air make me happy, so happy.

Thought 8. Another thing that I know about myself is that I hate clichés and conventions.

Thought 9. One such convention that I hate is the thought that when weather echoes your mood, your mood is made stronger.

Thought 10. The weather now is cold and disgusting.

Thought 11. I do not feel cold or disgusting.

Thought 12. I enjoy cold disgusting weather in the fall in the city.

Thought 13. This weather does not echo my mood, but it does enhance it, because I love the cold disgusting weather in the fall in the city, and therefore, I must love you as well.

And there you have it. I know now, (and by this point in the letter, you must too) that my heart is not only beating fast because I need more blood in my extremities to stave off frostbite, but because I am thinking about you.

Love, Claire

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Untitled

Everything that had to be said

has been said.


We’ve sounded out the words endlessly, in dimly lit scenes,

dredging through the dark corners of our minds,

reaching inside our chests to pull out the offending organ,

soft, swollen, red,

and tossed it around casually,

with the raised inflections of our dead words.


It gathers lint, and dust, and the poison

of an emotion once expressed, which cannot be taken back,

a shadow of doubt,

and a thick black tar film of bitterness.

Mercilessly, we extend the pincers,

to encircle the tender shape of our entwinement—

delirious with danger, heavy with irony,

I cut you deeply,

only to watch myself bleed.


And then, the next morning,

we restart the discussion:

the negotiations, the justifications, the delineations

cloud the air and move, smothering, down the windpipe;

we thrash violently against the oncoming stalemate

as it creeps and scrapes through the lungs

at the empty wound of space where, once, something else

used to be.

Monday, October 08, 2007

Spacing Issues

Some of you may have noticed weird things happening to the line spacing in your post. This was due to an error in the Blogger template (their fault, not mine!) and has now been corrected. Bask in the glow of line-height: 1.5em and rejoice.

Ode to the Internet

Written at the 10/04/07 meeting and brushed up slightly. I'm especially looking for feedback on where to start and end lines.


Ode to the Internet

Dare I assign a power of ten to your size?
I fear you will exceed it before
the words can leave my mouth.

Or perhaps, you are fundamentally
incompatible with the notion of size;
Your infinite complexity and omnipresent reach
Transcend quantification.

Some attempt to assign you an age
But this is another number you evade
with frustrating ease. Nevertheless,
sometime between Ace of Base and Avril Lavigne
you came into existence and brought with you

Everything.

Music movies games e-mail IMs blogs porn
Videos of dogs on skateboards
Stories about Tiffany's asshole boyfriend
Pictures from my summer vacation
Jessica Alba's ass in a bikini
Illegal software
The latest headlines
How to double your stock earnings without trying
Ron Paul spam
MySpace pages
and everything else else the
human mind is capable of achieving
swirl and spin and blend and blur
in your maelstrom depths.

And yet you are so much more
than merely the sum of your parts.
You are wonderful, terrifying, exciting
You are the Internet.

Rolling out of bed

I moved two lines from the middle to the end, does it work better now? I want to think it does, then again...I wrote it, I'm biased, aren't I?

[Rolling out of bed]


Rolling out of bed,
rain's falling,
the window pane is
covered in drops
that look like tears.
Go out for lunch,
soup and crackers,
jazz at the
Corner Street Cafe.
How nice to pretend
it's the end of the world.
There's not a sound,
a walk in the rain
shows the quiet inside.
There's nothing to do,
I've forgotten it all.

It's cold,
but the baptized streets
are nice to feel.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Walking Winter City Streets

Here's a long-ish one. Please tear into it, no fear. The rest is on the post page.


Walking Winter City Streets


Wandering the city soulless,
The titans drifted to home towns
And snow gently perching on
The paths, reclaiming the
Heated shuffle of the day
To layer white upon concrete uncontested.
Late night journey into the subtle
Emptiness.

I trudged a trail well knowing
Snow conquest would have
Her buried in moments of night.
I stole looks at pairings left
In quiet city, sitting on
Couches in their homes.
Their paths not yet buried,
Tiny prints and large,
First walking side by side
Then sliding, enjoying
The frictionless sidewalks
While thinking of friction in
Warm-sheeted beds.

I wished then that beside
Me on the winter nocturnal
That some starry-eyed reciprocator
Cast with delicate features
In night-light moon-binding
Would match my stride and,
In a moment of nostalgic
Love of childhood fun just
Slide.
I thought of mom and dad
Parked away in their bed,
Having found meaning in
Their arms on cold winter
Nights.
How their eyes must have
Burned at the thought of
Beating the cold back.
But that was when passion
Was their modus operandi–
I’m sure now they sleep
Back-to-back.

But such gems of lovers
Vanished at the thought that
I was not lonely in my
Solitary wanderings.
The snowfall beauty was my
Mistress– Seeing her dancing
To settle was enough.
Her shadow cast as falling,
Black dim flakes rising from
The ground.

I imagined wandering in the woods
Of my home.
No longer afraid of the vicious
Fangs of darkness, having
Become so much a part of
The silent proceedings.
Etched upon my face the
Marks of many journeys through
Those different streets.
I could walk with the coyotes
Of my home, not waking
Them from slow talk ponderings
Under the awnings of the brick
Churches.
I carried that hopeless musk
Of unfitting yearning.
I was no longer an intruder
In their darkness, rituals of
Survival– an outsider, but
Knowing slightly, enough.

The target of the trip,
Laced with neon signs
Singing of “Lotto, Slush, Phone Cards” –
A quick stop masked by
The gravity of walking, a
Moment forgotten staring into
The mirror of concrete snowfall contemplation–
A root to reality.

My path burned with fragmented
Verse, pace quickened at the thought
Of scribbling down so madly, to
Capture the mind’s ejaculation.
To describe the beauty of those
Slide marks and the imagined
Lovely words and smiles on
The lips of that sweet, small-footed
Girl.
The snow had not masked her from me.
I cherished her–
Chained her in my thoughts,
Bent on distilling her minute in the snow
Into words, to bestow upon her love
She’ll never know.

Only the empty doors, opened into the
Metal shining elevator, know,
And maybe the bums hidden under
That brick church awning–
They are the silent watchers
Of the unreal night world,
Marking the paths and siphoning
Thoughts of the displaced day-time
Travelers.
Let them know of my love,
And note that I was not
Cold in that frozen world,
White under fresh fall.


Friday, October 05, 2007

A Porch, Summer Night

Workshopped last night. Let me know what you think.

A Porch, Summer Night

I've seen all seasons
Press the wood of this deck‒

    First the fall,
    With fading dead leaves
    Swirling through the rails‒
    The winter with its white piles
    Coming, melting, coming again‒
    Then spring with the terrible violence
    Of life giving-taking storms
    Second-hand through above‒
    The summer with hotness and air
    And oppressive water wall.

I've known the place
Through one full cycle‒
    I'm transplanted here,
    The age sloughed off
    And left layered, dead skin
    On the once-living boards,
    An imprint, thumb-print, shadow of self.


An obscured view of city night,
Orange glow haze,
And the day-time-all-time-no-break brightness
Of parking structure,
People working on my shift.
Sleepless night.
Big building windows lit,
Arrow pointing towards
The last lingering lost,
Fellow travelers on concrete
Long past bar crowd‒
    Those fake patrons of moon,
    Regularly scheduled broadcasts of interaction,
    Auto-pilot motion, Polo shirts and beer
    And girls in skirts
    Displaying all of their virtue at skin level
    For weighing and consideration over barstools,
    A drunk squeeze test for ripeness.

They don't know the sky
Stays creamy like orange milk
As perfume fades from the sidewalks,
Or the true night people
Who squeeze sentences from empty footsteps,
Suck down the late night cigarettes
Held in fingers alone,
Listen to the unmanned hum of nocturnal machinery‒
    The crickets, the power plants, the neon lights.


A city too bright for stars,
Constellations born from still-lit windows
In towering apartments,
Trace the shape
Of the lone hunter‒
    Two lights and a line,
    A belt and a bow,
    The wind a star-lit quarry,
    Kissing each summer leaf in its evasion.

Interstellar

Here's a poem I brought in to workshop yesterday. It's still a rough draft, and the title is strictly provisional. I'd like to especially know whether you think the transitions between sections work okay. Enjoy.

*edit* I just wanted to mention, for those of you managed to escape high-school French, that the epigraph is from a book called "The Little Prince" and translates, roughly, to this: "If you love a flower that is in a star, it is sweet, at night, to look at the sky."

Interstellar

Si tu aimes une fleur qui se trouve dans une étoile,
C’est doux, la nuit, de regarder le ciel
--Le Petit Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

I

It was a happy, happy evening
The time you took me to the beach at dusk.
We ate vanilla-and-chocolate swirled soft-serve
as the sky turned pink.

You swam out to the big waves,
Your golden arms flying like seagull wings,
And I tried to keep up.
And the swish of the water and the thud of my heart
Sounded just perfect with your happy, happy laugh.


II

But, later, you sat me down on the sand,
As I looked for seashells in the dark,
And told me you were going far away.

Where, I asked, as my heartbeat stopped.
You pointed to the stars.

And then you left.
I guess I always sort of knew
That gold-and-silver people like you
Are just too bright to last too long in places like this.

It’s just—I wonder if they have oceans in interstellar space?
I hope they do.
I’d like to think of you backstroking though the nebulae,
Your chest glittering with a thousand tiny exploded stars.



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III

I took an astronomy class so I could look for you in the sky
But it just made me sad
Because, I realized, I’d been doing everything wrong so far—
How can I be expected to locate you when
The pole star isn’t even actually above us?
And that big star which you’d pointed at, which I thought would be near you?
Yeah, that’s just Venus.

My professor told us, laughing,
That if you were to look at the solar system from another star,
You’d see the sun, probably Jupiter, and maybe Saturn
The earth wouldn’t even look like a speck of dust.

I dropped that class.


IV

You’re fading, you’re fading!
When I wake up in the middle of the night now
I have to try to see your face in the dark of my eyelids
And it’s not gold any more, just sort of mustard.
And when I go outside with my astronomy book to look in the sky,
I can’t even find the little dipper to trace the pole star—
The constellations have all dissolved since you left,
And there are new patterns now.

Tell me, do you lie back and float peacefully, up in velvety space?
You’re lucky then, because down here on earth,
It’s cold, and the silence is deafening.

So I just come back to bed
And put my fingers in my ears
And listen to the ocean, and think of ice cream, and seashells,
And the feel of sand in the middle of my toes,
And you, and warm sunny days.

(But somehow, I can never imagine the last two together any more).


V

I’m taking anatomy now,
They said I couldn’t just keep avoiding science classes.
And I guess it’s kind of neat
How all the veins connect like subway lines
And the brain is one big marshmallow-noodle.

But it takes some of the magic away,
You know,
To find out that stars are just made of the same stuff as human beings,
And that all that time I wasn’t listening to the ocean;
It was just the blood running in my arteries.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Unfinished story

The prompt for this story was the very first picture in the creepy picture book we looked at that one time. The one with the little pixies floating into the boy's room. I find names elusive at this late hour of the night. Anyway:

When I was very young visitors would come to my room late at night. The circumstances surrounding their motivations and their origins were always a mystery to me, but only later in my childhood did I realize that these visitations were somewhat out of the norm.


This may seem odd to you. I will refrain from describing the visitors for the moment, lest it seem even more so. Instead I will endeavor to explain how I came to find their presence so unremarkable for so long.



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My parents were rarely at home during my younger years – away on business or pleasure, or hiding from the Green (as were so many in those years), or God knows. I did not. I still do not. They had hired a wet nurse for me when I was still an infant and kept her on as a permanent nanny until her murder a decade later. If they had known that she was actually working two shifts in the City (presumably to support a family in her home country) and only ever came back to the house at three in the morning to sleep for four or so hours perhaps they would not have kept her on. Or perhaps they would have – how much, if at all, my parents cared about my wellbeing is another thing I have never truly understood.


I was thus largely alone in the familial manse for my entire childhood. Almost bereft of contact with adults, barring the few hours a day when Nana was at home, I had only a tenuous grasp on the normal and the possible. To me, thus, the nocturnal visits were none too strange – indeed, my child's imagination conjured no less fanciful adventures during the daylight hours.


The visitors themselves were small and man-shaped, and very bright. They floated, invariably, through the window, and their own natural glow combined with that of the moon conspired to illuminate the entire room almost as well as during broad daylight. They never came on cloudy nights, or on nights when the moon was not in the sky. Only later would I think to question them about this, after I had already begun to contemplate the answer. They spoke my language, albeit slowly and simply – perhaps the better to communicate with a child deprived of many opportunities to learn new vocabulary. Their faces were lupine.


We would speak, as I have said, and play games – they would hide from me, or I from them, in the bowels of the house. Often they would lead me outside, and these were the only times I would ever see my neighborhood, pale in the moonlight. I was prohibited from leaving the house by Nana even before the wave of murders; the Murderer's appearance only served to frighten me enough to obey – during the day, at the least. With my companions I felt I had no cause to fear, and in fact we ventured out into the Town more and more frequently as time progressed, even after the slayings became more frequent.


I should speak of the murders, as they would eventually prove to be at the heart of everything. It is important you realize that these were not the mundane killings and disappearances that occur whenever the Green rule. By all accounts the first of the murders did indeed occur shortly after the Seizure, and I am sure that most residents of the Town at first assumed them to be attributable to the change in government.


Slowly, however, it became apparent that the Murderer was operating against the wishes of the Green. The municipal commandant posted reward notices, and the radio news went so far as to report the murders and to appeal for vigilance from the Townsfolk – actions the Green surely would not have taken had the murders been committed at their behest. But most important of all is the nature of the murders themselves.


I say murders, though from all accounts most of the victims were simply dogs and family pets and farm animals. The human victims were selected seemingly based on convenience, without any apparent motive or reason. Individuals out after dark, or who lived alone, or who slept near windows were the most frequent targets, though there were a few instances of massacres of entire households towards the end. None of the murders was committed with the aid of a firearm – the victims were instead eviscerated or butchered, their throats ripped out and their bodies rent open. Bizarrely, some of the victims were slain while their spouses slept on, oblivious until awakened by the birdless silence of morning.


People began to panic as the Murderer began to target humans with greater frequency. Fearing an exodus to the City or elsewhere, and the subsequent destabilizing effect on the public order, the Green quarantined the Town. I do not know what Nana did, then, to earn money, as she remained only a nocturnal visitor to the house. I suspect she may have turned to prostitution.


And I in all this? I, yet a child, remained oblivious to it all. Strange things were happening in my own life at the time, though I of course did not recognize their strangeness. It was at around the time of the first human murders that I stopped feeling the need to eat.

Cliff

Jeez, I'm on a roll. Thoughts? Especially regarding the first couple lines or the title.

I've always
Played it safe,
Never daring
To reach out
For fear of being
Pulled
Or pushed
Over the edge.
But the world is
On the other side.
So I jump.
And hope there's a net
To catch me.